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Sunday, November 29, 2009

so many people changed since years ago.

i guess people change.

have i?

i certainly have. at least i think i did.

i became less fit, thats for sure. played 5mins of touch, and there i am panting like a dog.

so much for being PES C. when was the last time i sweat that much.

and the sergeants asked me to play at kallang cage tonight. sorry. pes C boy is unfit officially, as displayed from 10am to 12noon.

back then, i could last for hours, and people had to pull me off the field to give others a chance to play.

now, i sub myself out voluntarily.

people change.

i guess i changed a lot since sec4.

but some people dont change, even when the whole world changes.

and it makes me wonder.

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1:26 AM

Friday, November 27, 2009

love my x-mini maxII.

everyone's busy with exams. is this what all JC ns-men feel during nov-dec? when they book out, breathe the air outside camp, feel the freedom, fish out their phone, and realise: theres no point asking anyone out unless they ask you out. they're probably having exams.

ask the guys out then.

not free. got something on. busy. still in camp for duty. exams.

say, singapore's meant to be an intresting place to be in. i say not.

seriously, there's no nice movies to watch. theres limited place to shop. gadgets always reach singapore like last. even movies in singapore are late compared to other countries (unless its homebrew movies like i not stupid)

stop and stare at emptiness. i slumbered into a corner, brooding over my sucky life.

my life sucks. camp aint making things any better. my life sucks. totally. seriously. i dont kid.

and home life aint doing any good.

this 2 years is gonna be tough to get over. even for me, a pes-C idiot.

2 years waste of time. seriously. life of a singaporean boy sure sucks.

and when life sucks, nothing else matters. even if i'm plummeted with 100000 confinements and 100000 extras, 100years in DB, i dont care anymore. i'm a living dead. i'm living a meaningless life anyway. let 100 dementors suck the happiness out of me. they'll probably be still hungry. i dont have any happiness for them to feed on anyway.

my mind's mentally dead. i'm tired. sick of this unhappy life. i want to jump into the body of someone's life. anybody will do. at least they're happier than me. even a poor, broken man would probably be happier than me.

happy people need not be rich, loaded, 100000 friends, and a billion dollar apartment to live in. happy people just need the soul to feel alive. my soul's probably long dead.

sitting in my armchair, listen to jay chou music. looking at the orange cup that was once filled with white fresh milk. letting the fan blow wind at me. if not for the music playing, the room is dead. it would be so bloody silent.

and my life feels empty. i'm a hollow man, nothing inside residing in me.

i would rather go back to camp. at least i have something to do. something to make me feel alive for the busy moments. at least i have someone to talk to.

i'm sick of my psp now. believe me.

tried to play some basketball today. even the heavens' making me bloody sad when it suddenly rained.

WHY IS SOME UNKNOWN ALMIGHTY MAKING LIFE SO BLOODY DIFFICULT FOR ME!!!!!

You were with me till;
6:58 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

ok i added a tweeter box widget under the interact section of my blog, below my flashbox, so i dont have to keep updating my blog or what.

besides, in camp, i have no lappytop or computer.

cheers to twitter, something that might beat facebook (ok they are 2 different things, cant compare)

i'll probably tweet a lot in camp to complain and complain. hoho.

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10:21 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

ram ram is over, and here comes block leave.

great since book out. sakura, meet up with bready, laoban&yk&edepig. tmrw meeting mph.

is it donation week or what. just keep meeting those people with bag-like donation kits asking us for donations. and i always feel compelled to donate, and when i ask how much, they say 10bucks.

come on i'm not earning a sergeant's or officer's pay dorks. do i get a choice of 9.90?

ok i shant complain since its for charity, though i doubt what percentage actually goes to those needy.

orchard is a wicked place, with road blockages and turn-ed off traffic lights, for the great president to attend his charity roadshow. and poor citizens like us have to take an extremely gruelling walk to get to the opposite side of the road via an overhead bridge which is 200m away. thats a total of 450m walk to get to the other side of the road which could be just a mere 20m away from where we are standing.
hail the president.

bready's really cute. she got me a breadou.
i guess its for me to poke.

and at this point of time, chelsea trashed blackburn 5-0. up da chels!

i had a great time today.

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2:19 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

in life, all roads lead to rome.

when there's no sleeping pills, cough mixture can do the trick too.

army life sucks, especially when lightning strikes. it always goes down to the poor troopers, also known as the men for life.

whats worse, when theres no shelter above your head, you get toasted/fried/charred/burnt/shit.

today is a horrible day. monday's probably bad too.

stomach pain. gastric. flu. headache.

probably gonna report sick.

my last meal was at 12pm. stomach empty.

feeling sick.

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10:51 PM

Monday, September 21, 2009

wow. its so long since i last blogged.

anw, thanks to the malay community in s'pore, i have 1 extra day off!

status and armskote life sure issnt bad, but it aint fantastic too. RT weekly must stay back. and even if i want to do IPPT, they wont let me. gahz.

playing psp sure occupies myself, takes away the boredom.

i need to get out and meet some people i havent met in ages. but the world is harsh. people have exams and studies.

army men life issnt great. we see each other in camp every day. yet when we want to see someone else, life forbids.

guess i'll have to wait till they're done with studies.

I, went through 6 mths of shit. I, have nothing at my chest.

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6:41 PM

Sunday, August 23, 2009

just caught manutd vs wigan. the first half was great. kirkland was superb. and it took a great save from foster to deny koumas his goal.

but 5-0 to manutd at final whistle. have to say, great goal by berbatov. good footwork.

watched sunderland chelsea. 3-1. great goal by deco. good finish by ballack. lucky penalty by lampard.

i wanna go swimming.
possible hawkP1 gathering tomorrow night.

dunno why i got selected for lan gaming squad. oh the game sucks. big time.

bought koi today. 2 cups. gonna go fat.

made cheesecake today. yay.

You were with me till;
12:08 AM